Die Geschichten in meinem Kopf

I have to breathe, air..... Air! Too much people who are staring at me, too much confusion when they focus me in front of the class. But i ain't talking. I can't. I can't say a tone. Not yet. F irst I have to calm down. I can feel my heart beat in an unsteady rythm. I slowly move to the window and open it. Finaly... A bit of air...  I just have to calm down. I just have to tell them what I found out about plastik and how much it troubles the ocean. But the others are still staring at me. They follow every move I make. I'm shure they can see my hands shaking and me shuttering at all. I'm going again in front of the class, but not wanting to give that presentation. Why do I have to do it? Well... Everyone has to... I can do it... I learned so long and now... I can't remember anything! Everything is gone. My mind is blank. Or no, not blank. Just full of voices which start screaming in alarmism.  'I need to go out! I can't do it! Help me! I can't b...

Born with fire, sold with blood, feel your desire, a deep cut. Take your sword, slam it down, one last word? I take the crown. We gonna burn to dust and ashes, that was your last turn, before your mind crashes. I am your demon, made of devil's gate, don't worry a sermon you just deserve hate. If you feel this way, you'll get help here and  here . Depression is as serious as a physical abuse, don't laugh about it and take it serious!

Why... Why can't I just say it right out? Can't tell anyone about this problem... Maybe because if so, they could put her into prison and take my brother out of family, take him away from me...  It's a normal day when I go to school like I always do, and wear like always a long sleeve. Nobody notices, nobody feels the pain I feel when I sit down or do sports in our lessons. Nobody noticed for years , maybe because I've never had the problem of change my closes in the restroom or never had swimming lessons. And if somebody noticed, then I said, I'm clumsy and fell down on something. As long as I'm fine and as long as my brother is fine I won't change anything... My mum is drinking to much alcoholic stuff. So I come home when she's drunk and go to school when she still is. I take my brother to the kindergarden and organize friends who are his babysitters when I have to be at school, because I was truant too often. My only wish is t oo deal with scho...

There you are.... O h my god.. T hese curves... This cute and nice face... I just can't... stop thinking about you... I've been living here since three years. S ome months ago a girl moved into the house next door... I had no idea of how wonderfull and beautifull a girl could look like... These full bloodred lips, this immaculate and pale skin , wi ch is in such a wonderfull contrast to her dark brown hair, which surrounds her incredible blue eyes, seeming like the ocean so blue.. H er appearance is unbelievable and I don't think I'm the only one who f el l for her...  T he moment we met first, was magical. I knew from the beginning, that there was something between us and I'm ready to do everything for her, just t o be by her side.  S o I started watching her , while I hid behind my curtains. I can't help it, I just had to watch her... I mean, s omehow she seemed to know it, or why would she move this sexy way in her underwear...? I watched her everyt...

Lieber Gott... Was soll ich nur tun? Ich bin ganz unten im Rang, bedeute kein Wort, und doch komme ich nicht von hier fort... Ich komme nicht umhin, nach ihr zu sehen, nicht umhin, hier nicht zu stehen. Wenn es wahr ist, dann ist's mein Trost, denn dann sah ich sie nicht in meinen Träumen bloß. O Holde Göttin, der tausendsten Nacht, sieh was mein Geheimnis mit mir macht, denn du bist mein Leben, mein Elixier, doch den Tod verabreichest du mir. O Sultans Tochter bist wie ein Stern, wunderschön und unerreichbar fern. Bald liege ich dir zu Füßen auf der Erde, bis ich kalt werde, bald sterbe. Ich bin ein Sklave, bin nichts wert, dennoch sehnt sich nach dir mein Herz. Tag um Tag werde ich schwinden, bis deine Wachen mich dann finden. Doch ist meine Liebe es mir wert, auch  wenn ich sogar sterbe durch des Teufels Schwert.  Eines Tages dann sprachest du mich an, dass ich Kranker auf die Frage antworten kann, wer ich sei und vonwem ich stamm'. Ich sagte dir: "Ich heiße Moham...

Es war gerade Abend geworden und das Wasser plätscherte gegen den Bug des Schiffes. Der Kapitän war gerade in seine Kajüte gegangen, weil ich ihn abgelöst hatte. Ich sah auf die vor mir liegende silberne Straße, die wie aus M illionen von kleinen Sternen bestehen zu schie n und lies meinen Blick nur darauf ruhen. Sah nur Zeitweise auf die Instrumente, die mir Geschwindigkeit und Richtung angaben. Da hörte ich sie. Ihren Gesang.  Dieses unvergleichliche Lied... Es war eine so wundersame Melodie... Sie schien wie aus Tönen gewebt und so zart wie noch ni e zuvor vernommenes. Es war, als wäre ein Engel dort oben auf de m Felsen...   S o sah ich nach oben und sah das schönste Wesen, das ich je erblicken konnte. Ein Mädchen von gar zierlicher Gestalt und güldenem Haar wie die strahlen der S o nne, das mit ihrem goldenem Kamm ihre langen sanften Strähnen kämmte . Sie trug ein blaues Kleid, das wie Wasser zu sein schien und ihre Haut war so blass wie der Mond.   A...

It was him again. This stupid boy. B ut okay, as long as he isn´t bothering me more and more... Shit   " G ood morn ing class. I would like to introduce a new member of our school to you.", he said standing infront of class pointing at .. My neighbour... "Uhm, hi. I 'm Josh. I'm si xteen years old and from G ermany. I hope we get alon g with ea chother and have a nice time." I took a look to my side. Tasha wa s smi ling brightly and looked to him happily. I c ould n´t understand.. W hy was she that focused on that guy, like... "You can sit down next to Natash a." , said Mr. Alber t pointing at the free seat next to her . T his was the beginning of the worst time of my life. They two liked ea chother and talked a lot, they always went to the cafeteria together and did always stuff toget her... Because of him, she left me behind.. Because of him my heart was brea king... It was time for revenge.. Twinkle, twinkle little star I'm here...